Let's just keep this one Untitled.

So, I am moved into my dorm at Loyola.  My roommate has yet to show up and move in.  I am kind of curious if he will ever move in. If he doesn't show up, I guess I am going to talk to my RA about what I should do.  Maybe I will have a room to myself. Not a bad thing, but if I wanted a room to myself, I probably would not have moved away from my home.  I kind of want that friendship that you usually get when you room with someone.  But at the same time, I'm scared I will hate him or I'll be actually intimidated by him or that he will think I'm a freak. Whatever. Maybe I will get a roommate and we'll be good friends. Or maybe my roommate will randomly show up. Who knows? I'll keep you updated.

This weekend was one of the best weekends ever.  First was Broadway on the Boulevard. What an amazing revue.  Everyone who performed in the show was extremely talented.  It felt like a step up above everything else I had done in theater.  My parents even thought that, and that should mean a lot because they are very judging towards the theater. So if you participated in it and you are reading this blog, you should feel really good about yourself because you were damn good. Then after BOTB, I went to Hannah's, and let's just say that there was alcohol and many stories that come from that night. That's all you will ever know. Mwahahaha. God, I love cliff hangers.

I was driving back to my dorm just now, and I realized that this weekend was the most fun I have had in a very long time. Why do I feel that way? My tight group of friends has broken up and is scattered across the country.  My best friends who are still near to me are busy with high school or are just too far away for me to drive and visit them. I need to make some friends here at Loyola! I don't know why I find it so hard to do. I'm fun, but I'm shy. Why do I put that wall around me? I need tear that shit down! Ok. I found my problem, and now I am going to fix it. I'm going to tear down my imaginary wall.  I think it will be easier when I start classes with people who like doing what I like doing.  Then, we will have a mutual interest, and the conversation will last longer than "Hi, I'm Jody."  Well, I'm putting my plan into action tomorrow on the 1st day of classes.  Tell you how it goes later.

Ready or Not

It's midnight on the night before I move into my dorm at Loyola.

I am scared about moving. I don't know why. I'm only moving 30 minutes away from house. I'm moving closer to my friends who live in the city. So why am I kind of freaking out about it?
I think it is partly because of this: Is my roommate going to like me? Are we going to get along? Am I going to find a group of people that I can call my friends? The I keep going back to the questions about Loyola. Is it right for me? But I think it is because it is the official end of what I knew before. The end of what I know, what I love. Once I move to Loyola, that is the end of life as I knew it.

Well, I guess all I can do is jump into life at Loyola, and remember all that I have experienced and love so much.

So here I go... [I will tell y'all how it goes in the next blog.]

It's almost the end

This might be a long one, so prepare yourself. This is a serious warning.

The end of the summer before heading off to college is an eye opening experience, especially with the weekend I just had. So after the end of Pajama Game, I went to Allison's "College Kid's Going Away Party." It was a great party as always, props for Allison. Besides eating food and socializing, we played the "Happy Game" or as it is now known by a select few as the "Bug Juice" game. It is a game where 1 person sits in the middle of the circle and everyone tells the person good things about him/her. Great fun! I recommend it for your next party. But being in the middle of the circle and hearing those comments was a great experience. I learned things about myself that I never really noticed, like my awkward face. Thanks to all for the great comments. I love you all!

But before the "Happy/Bug Juice" game, there were paper and pens scattered around for people to write letters to the graduates going off to college in a short time. I did not write any because I'm not the greatest with words or with pen and paper. I am better with computers. So here are my letters in no particular order. Yes, I realize this is public, but you just gotta deal.

- Burton Himbert and Chris Alley - You guys are my best friends. I don't know what the fuck I am going to do with out you 2. The last 4 years have been great, even if we weren't the best of friends the whole time (sorry, I hated you, Chris). All I can say is that I wish you luck in wherever life takes you, Burt with your dentistry & Chris with whatever your major is right now. I love you guys.
- Erika Bisgaard- Seriously, I want to see some God-children. Just kidding. I will miss your wonderfully smart and witty comments and your caring, motherly attitude towards all of us in the group.
- Zach Frosch and Candace Rodriguez - I'm going to miss you 2 so much, especially seeing y'all looking so cute. Zach, I might come visit you, not just to see you but also because you live in New York. Candace, we have to party when you come back into town, so call me.
- Nick Bondio - I am going to miss your silly and crazy ass. You better come down every once in a while so we can party. I already told Tommy I would go up to Baton Rouge to visit. I better see you when I go.
- Garrett Napier - I am going to miss your bass-like mumbling, your constant hatred for Zach Rau and our congregations at your house. I have to say your house was obviously the place to be.
- Courtney Kattengell - Where do I begin? Can you believe it's been a little over a year? I wish I could have met you sooner. Nonetheless, I am glad to have met you. Our times together were all so fun and interesting. I hope you love and succeed at Marrymount Manhattan and New York. Be prepared to have a visit at least once from me. I'm still thinking Thanksgiving. If you ever get bored like you always do, feel free to send me a text. I miss those txt conversations. Good luck in New York! I can't wait to see you on Broadway!
- Blythe Reed - I'm not going to miss anything because I am probably going to see you everyday. You ready for that?
- David Joubert - I am going to miss our pointless fights about dungeons and melting rocks. I am really glad you are going to D.C. I know you will enjoy it. Soak up the politics because I will never talk politics with you. Sorry. But anyway...have fun!
- Dani Demontlezin- What can I say? You are a crazy bitch, and I am going to miss your random loud outbursts and our daily, late-night deep conversations. I am glad to be such good friends with you. I will miss you, but I doubt that I won't see you like every once in a while (meaning like every other weekend).
- Kyle Moffatt - So, like I told Nick just a minute ago, we have to hang when I come visit Baton Rouge. Deal? Deal. I'm glad that's settled.
- Cameron Ware - You are such an amazing dancer! I hope you continue to pursue dancing. I'm gonna miss my (probably only) black friend.
- Hayli Dupre - Best friend!! I'm sad we never got to become actual best friends. But since you aren't going very far, we still have the chance to become semi-real best friends. Call me when you aren't at Ooh-La-La, and I will spill my secrets.
- Bryce Turgeon - You are the funniest person I have ever metm and you are an awesome costumer too. Oh yea, and don't go into those woods!!!
- Charlotte Brown - Now that I won't see you everyday at rehearsals, I am going to have to find someone else who gives amazing massages.
- Emily Gootee - I am going to miss my #1 fan. We have to hang when you come back in town from big-time Vanderbilt.

To everyone I have just written above: I wish all of you the best of luck in whatever endeavors you may pursue, and I hope that we can all hang out again very soon.

Also,I received a few letters, which I really appreciate. I realize it is a little impersonal, but hey, what can you do? Here are my responses to the letters:
- Sarah Jackson - I don't know what "shit" you are talking about, but I am glad to have gone through it to be friends with you. You are such a great person, and I am so glad to have met you. I love you so much, but not in the creepy stalker kind of way. Btw, you are crazy talented. My mom even thinks so, so you should feel really special.
- Allison Tebbe - My numba 1!! I'm glad I am staying close too, so now we hang loads more! If ya need help with the drama club, call me. I will gladly stop by and visit and possibly led a hand.
- Tyler Ales - Your crying for me is enough love. I could not ask for more. I can't wait to see the DHS show in April! I will love and miss our rides from school to rehearsal. Hopefully, you will think of me when you are driving yourself to rehearsal and listening to your ipod.
- Kevin Marshall - Thank you for your kind words of wisdom. I will think about them I will definitely be doing shows around the city, and I hope that someday I will be doing another show with you.
- Chris Alley - I already wrote you towards the top of this blog, so that should be good enough.
- Rachel De Jonge - I am technically not going to miss you since I will probably see you every couple of days. I will also miss the bushes... our bushes. Oh, and don't worry. I don't think I will fall for Dody.
- Catherine Simpson - Aww.... I absolutely love your letter. All of those memories I actually remember, which is surprising because I usually forget a lot of things easily. For some reason I feel the need to give you a few words of advice. Continue in theater. You are an awesome singer and an amazingly gifted actresss. I know it's early, but break a leg at [insert DHS Spring Musical for 2009 here] auditions!!
- Dani Demontlezin - Oh, Dani. What can I say what I have not already said to you? I will miss our random venting sessions. If I need to vent, I hope that you will still let me vent to you or that you will at least read the venting on my blog. Oh btw, I do take pride in my ass.

I extremely appreciate everything that has led up to the few precious days before college: the shows, the fun times, the friends. I will miss it, but I won't forget it. I love you all!!!

Ugh...

So tonight was the last dress rehearsal for Pajama Game at St. Francis Xavier. We ran the show in about 2 and a half hours, which is the fastest time yet. It went fairly well. There was some little things that I did that will most likely will be fixed for opening night (tomorrow). My mistakes were mainly in the dance number in which I am featured, "Steam Heat."



My "Steam Heat" mistakes (in no particular order):
1. Stepped on wrong foot at the beginning of the number
2. Wrong dance step on the "Elvis feet"
3. Wrong shoulders on the weird foot dragging section
4. Late entrance on "They told me to pour some more oil in the burner"
5. Late entrance on the a capella/clap section
Ok, so numbers 1 and 2 are no big deal. I'll remember them and fix them. Done.
Number 3 Should not be a big deal, but no! So for some reason Lindsey, the choreographer, decided to change that part AGAIN, the night before we open. You don't have to change it just because I messed up! It's bad enough I messed up. Just help me fix it, and we'll be fine. I know that because she changed it, I am now going to forget the new step and fuck up the whole dance. Woohoo! Good decision. Smart choice.
Numbers 4 and 5, on the hand, are a big deal. We have worked on those entrances for the past week! Why can I not get them?! What the fuck is wrong with me that I cannot get it? We have done it over and over again! Gah! If I can't get this, how am I supposed to get anywhere in this business? If I can't get this, how am I going to make it out of New Orleans and on to something better, like New York and Broadway? I guess all I can do is go over it a couple more times tomorrow before the show and hope that I will get it right when the time comes.

"Steam Heat" is the one-and-only time in the show where I feel somewhat important and needed. Now, I don't really know why, but these little thing kind of really got to me. After hearing about them I got all depressed. What is wrong with me?

Geez. I thought blogging would make me feel better, but I still somewhat depressed.

Barbie

Ok, so Jamie (a.k.a. Barbie) is a good friend of mine. She is pretty much the essence of Barbie, even though I think she REALLY reminds me of Bailey Hanks. We kind of fight a lot on facebook chat, but that's ok because we know we'll be nice when we see each other in person, which is better than actually talking through an instant message.

My point: This is a shout out to Jamie!

P.S. She has been bugging me about blogging about her since I fist started blogging.

Is it right or really wrong?

So here's my Facebook horoscope for today, Sunday August 3, 2008.
Aquarius: Big changes in your romantic life are coming. Things are about to start going the way you always hoped...

For like the past week my Facebook horoscope has been completely wrong. So, why should my horoscope start being true now? Let's humor it this time. It's saying that I already have a so called "romantic life." Ha. What romantic life? Even if I did have a romantic life, why and how would it change for the better all of a sudden? I guess that would me it's beginning. I mean, I have had some kind of relationships before, but I think none of them can be considered part of my "romantic life." Why is it so hard to find some one you connect with and be with? Also, why is it so hard to keep that person when you finally find them? This is what I have the most trouble with. I conflicts just keep getting in my way!! Next time I find someone I really like, I hope conflicts will stay out of my way because I WILL KICK SOME CONFLICT ASS!!

So, I guess my whole point in blogging about this can be summed up in a few questions to whoever is apart of the nothingness that is also everything (does that make sense?), is all-knowing and omnipotent, a.k.a. whoever created me (not my parents): What's your plan for me? Are you just messing with me or is there something out there for me? If so, will it be soon or will I have to endure some time and other obstacles? Can I get a hint?!