Love...

Let's talk about love for a bit.

Now, I love a few things like Broadway musicals, New York, Sutton Foster, Kerry Butler and Annaleigh Ashford (pictured. Hot blond, isn't she?). If you don't know who they are, you should Google and YouTube them because they are fricken amazing! But these things and people are known and loved by many people. What is the the one thing or person in the world that I can truly love and have all for myself?

I have never been close to any kind of real love, and I only know of it because of the movies. But I think in a way movies, especially Disney movies, have given me a false sense of love. Everyone thinks they are the protagonist who falls in love with and gets the pretty, smart, talented love interest and reaches their dreams or saves the day in the end. I thought this too. Let's just say my life is a movie with me as the protagonist. I know it's kinda lame, just go with me on this. I'm not really worried about saving the day yet or reaching my dreams, but where is my pretty, smart, and talented love interest? I've had some good times with a couple of girls, but none seemed to go anywhere for no reason what so ever. Just for the record, there was one "relationship" that ended because of circumstances outside of our control.

But throughout my life I have seen others enjoy the wonders of love or what seems like something that comes close to love. I'm surrounded by it. My parents are still together since they met in college about 28 years ago. My brother's girlfriend is living with my family, and she and my brother are probably going to get married. Chris has gone through a few girlfriends that he has had somewhat deep and meaningful connections with. Candace and Frosch are the cutest couple ever. Burton and Erika have been together for like 3 years, and their love is what I hope to have in the future.

But why is it that all this love is happening around me? Why does it not happen to me? Why cannot I not find a person who I can truly connect with? Are my expectations too high? All I want is someone who is smart and talented in whatever they do, good looking (it's not the most important thing), who loves me for me, supports me in my endeavors, and will be there for me if I need them. I also want to do the same things for that person. I want to connect with them, like be on another level with them. I want something above everything else in life.
In a way, isn't what we all want just someone for ourselves?

I believe that everyone has a soul mate out there in the world who is subliminally looking for them. I wish everyone will be able to enjoy the effects of love. I believe it is the one thing everyone should experience before they die.

Every time I think about love this quote comes to mind: "The greatest thing you'll ever know is just to love and be loved in return." - Moulin Rouge. Ponder over that for a little while.


Also, I must say that even though I did not really mention them I love my friends: Monique, Burton, Ethan, Janie, Chris, Dani, etc. You all know who you are. I love you!