Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Life is complicated

I was feeling the blog tonight.

I'm sitting in the Dana Center at the CC's. We've been here for about an hour and a half, and I have done only my reading for Philosophy class. It took me awhile with the noise and the distraction of my computer, Facebook, and iChat. I could have done more. Tomorrow I have to get lots of work done, and after classes, I'm going to do it. No excuses.

So, I have this assignment for my Music Literature class where I have to chose 3-5 CDs (or compilations) that I would take with me to a desert island. I should hope this island has a CD player. Do you know how hard it is to chose 3-5 CDs out of the MANY in your (in my opinion, large) music library? It's really hard! I listen to something different everyday. It all depends on my mood. How do I pick a couple favorites out of the many of favorites I have? Crazy teacher making a music student pick a couple of his/her favorite musical works... Whatever. I guess that means I shouldn't have a problem writing 750-1000 words on whatever works I chose.

I think I have this quality in me that lets other people spill their problems to me, and I try to give them helpful advice. I somehow become their personal psychiatrist. The advice is usually helpful, well thought-out, and unbiased (at least, I try to make it that in the best way I can). Why do I try to act like I know so much? Or do I actually know a little something? Does my advice actually help? How do I get myself in this position? Don't get me wrong. I like help a friend in need. I won't turn them away. I don't like seeing others in pain or complete confusion. But I just need to know whether or not my "advice" actually helps others, even if it's just a little bit. I need to know I'm not turning people in the wrong directions. I need to know that I am doing good.

My birthday is on Monday. In about 5 days, I turn 19. Turning 19 is not like when you turn 16 and you can drive, when you turn 18 and you are "legal," or when you turn 21 and you are officially legal. Anything special about 19? Not really, not compared to the others. Every year since I was little, I would get excited when my birthday got close. [Who doesn't get excited for their birthday?] It seems to me that other people feel fulfilled on their birthday. They feel something special, but somehow, when my birthday rolls around, there isn't really anything special about it. It's like another day, except it has a special title and connotation, but technically, I guess that is what a birthday is. For the most part, the day is made up of my initial excitement, my parents excitement (and the fact that they feel old), go to school or do whatever I have to do that day, I have dinner and cake with the family, and maybe another dinner with my friends, and then life goes on. [I'm not trying to be depressing. I promise I will try to be more positive.]Last year was an exception because my birthday actually landed on the Saturday before Mardi Gras, so I spent my day on the Endymion parade route with my friends. It was great. This year is going to be about the same as the other years. What can you do on a Monday? So to break the tradition of a mediocre birthday and to make up for a lame Monday, I am going to hang out with Courtney this Friday: swinging, candy shopping, dinner, and whatever other random stuff we will think up at the time. That is going to be the best part of my birthday, even if it's not on the actual day. I think I'm just going to try and make Monday the best Monday ever. [Did I successfully break the depressing dreariness? Told you I would try. Optimism is key.]


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This is a comedian, Anjelah Johnson doing her the Nail Salon part of her stand up act. It's not the funniest ever, but it is pretty damn funny (and pretty true). Haha.


This next video wouldn't let me embed video to my blog (probably because it's a bootleg video), so you will just have to click the link and go to its youtube page. This is Laura Benanti (Gypsy, Into the WoodsThe Wedding Singer) singing "Unusual Way" from Nine the Musical. There is a scene before the song. The song is so beautiful. I couldn't help but post it. Click the link and enjoy!

This is Matt Doyle singing one of my favorite, "A Change is Gonna Come," by Sam Cooke. Love his voice and his belt. He beasts this. No one can deny it. Don't even try because you will be shot down once you see the video.


BAM!!

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