Ugh...

So tonight was the last dress rehearsal for Pajama Game at St. Francis Xavier. We ran the show in about 2 and a half hours, which is the fastest time yet. It went fairly well. There was some little things that I did that will most likely will be fixed for opening night (tomorrow). My mistakes were mainly in the dance number in which I am featured, "Steam Heat."



My "Steam Heat" mistakes (in no particular order):
1. Stepped on wrong foot at the beginning of the number
2. Wrong dance step on the "Elvis feet"
3. Wrong shoulders on the weird foot dragging section
4. Late entrance on "They told me to pour some more oil in the burner"
5. Late entrance on the a capella/clap section
Ok, so numbers 1 and 2 are no big deal. I'll remember them and fix them. Done.
Number 3 Should not be a big deal, but no! So for some reason Lindsey, the choreographer, decided to change that part AGAIN, the night before we open. You don't have to change it just because I messed up! It's bad enough I messed up. Just help me fix it, and we'll be fine. I know that because she changed it, I am now going to forget the new step and fuck up the whole dance. Woohoo! Good decision. Smart choice.
Numbers 4 and 5, on the hand, are a big deal. We have worked on those entrances for the past week! Why can I not get them?! What the fuck is wrong with me that I cannot get it? We have done it over and over again! Gah! If I can't get this, how am I supposed to get anywhere in this business? If I can't get this, how am I going to make it out of New Orleans and on to something better, like New York and Broadway? I guess all I can do is go over it a couple more times tomorrow before the show and hope that I will get it right when the time comes.

"Steam Heat" is the one-and-only time in the show where I feel somewhat important and needed. Now, I don't really know why, but these little thing kind of really got to me. After hearing about them I got all depressed. What is wrong with me?

Geez. I thought blogging would make me feel better, but I still somewhat depressed.